New Year

While everyone is busy celebrating the end of year 2009 and welcoming the year 2010,

I wondered whether there are so many things in everyone life that's worth celebrating in this coming year....

To me, the day 31/12/2009 was just like any other last day of the yearS.......

Maybe it was just me who doesn't understand the meaning of celebrating it...*sigh*

Yet, I'm still celebrating it with my friends... ;p

Speechless....

I don't usually think that I'm smart

But if you think that I'm stupid,

I can tell you that that's very naive of you.....

New Year Resolution

The year 2009 is going to end soon in which I didn't realize how fast it was...

I've graduated unofficially and I was waiting for my convocation next year...

Honestly, I wasn't as excited like my sisters were when they were waiting for their convocation....

Yea, I feel lost at this moment and I just lived through everyday as if it was my sem break like before...

Yet, I have to realize that I will have to live my life in the same way I was if I don't make any changes or decisions on my future...

So, I asked myself, "what do you want?"

The answer was "I don't know..."

What's in this post that's got something to do with new year resolution?

I know you'll be asking this.

I still remembered that my secondary school teachers used to make us have our own new year resolutions, but they don't follow up with it...

We'll just write in a piece of paper and I wondered how many of us actually kept the paper and evaluate it at the end of the year...

And I used to think that new year resolutions are useless...

However, I've decided to have one this year so that I have a sense of direction in my life..

I don't know if it works...But I'd hope it does....

One Week Plan

Friday: Go to Kastam, then pyramid then One U then go to work then go out with Mia

Saturday: Work

Sunday: Shopping with sisters

Monday: Plan to study for ethics

Tuesday: Shopping with sisters

Wednesday: Study for ethics

Thursday: Sit for ethics' exam!!!!Then go to Cameron

Friday: Cameron

OMG...what a busy week!!!!!

I doubted that I can finish studying ethics!!!!

无聊

有人跟我说:"你的blog很无聊，都写一些无聊的东西。"

我就在想，blog不就是属于我个人的财产吗？？

我不是应该有自由要用我的blog来抒发我的个人情绪还是用来记录我的生活点滴吗？

这些都是我的自由，怎么会有人这样来说别人呢？？

I wondered why....

AssignmentsSsSss...

Finally, I'm done with all my undergraduate assignments!
Yay~~~~~
Finals are around the corner and after that, I'll be FREEEE....
for a while I meant... ;p

A long yet short night

I had so much fun just now!!!!

It has been a long time that I've laughed till my tears dropped!!!

Yet, the night was too short for us to talk and talk and talk non-stop...

According to my aunt, we were too high that we started to talk nonsense and were talking as if we were drunk although we didn't consume any alcohol.....

Ms W

今天是特别的一天， 因为我的老师请了我们一起去吃晚餐。。。

同时，我的二姐也从NZ 回来了。。。yay~~~~~

这一次的晚餐不一样的是，这一次的人数应该是上一次的两倍。。。。

吃得很抱，也很开心。。。

我们的话题都离不开现在最热门的网上游戏， 就是那一个种菜的游戏。。。。

她很衰咯。。还叫人家不要送我礼物。。。还不要加我做邻居！！！

气死我了~~~

为的就是要赢我。。不可以， 我不可以给她赢。。。

要更努力的玩了。。。

还有还有。。。

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就是被她讽刺+欺负。。。。

唉，我输了。。。我真的输了。。。

输给谁， 就是题目的人咯。。。。

而且还是我自以为最厉害的专长。。。。

我竟然说不过她。。。

也斗不过她。。。

*啜泣*

还要给她说我幼稚~~~~

还帮我改名字。。。叫做"farmru"

因该没有拼错吧。。。

啊啊啊啊啊~~~~

为了不让我自己太难过，

好吧， 让我来自我安慰一下，

她是我的老师嘛，当然赢不到她啦~~~~ ;p

还有还有。。。她呵说，如果不八，就选错科来念了。。。。

所以，结论就是， 坐在那里的各位， 都很八。。。

啊哈哈哈哈~~~~

最后，原来她和我在media management 的朋友一样，

对我的第一印象都是很乖，很好的wor....

hehehe...再一次证明， 我的样子还可以骗到人一下。。。;p

我不明白

为什么这个世界上有那么多自私和计较的人？？

为什么？ 为什么？？为什么？？？

为什么你做就可以？？ 我就不可以？？

为什么你那么的斤斤计较？？

为什么你不为我想一想？？

为什么每一次都是你对我错？？

为什么？？？！！！！！

复杂的心情

有一个好消息，同时也有一个坏消息。。。

好消息是我的姐姐终于要从NZ回来了，

坏消息就是， 我要从新习惯她的存在。。。

我已经习惯一个人在房间里，做很多东西了，

（又不被人骂的。。。）

;p

如果她回来了，我的daily routine 就不能正常运作了。。。

因为她会嫌吵。。。

我也不能开着灯做assignment, 又不能太大力打字，等等等。。。。

唉。。。

还有还有。。。她，下星期六或日就回来了！！！！！

唉。。。。好快哦。。。。

真是复杂的心情呢！

Oh~~~~oh~~~~~

This happened yesterday while I was in college desperately need someone to send me back to Theresa's house in order to get my own car as it was raining,

so, I called Ck...

I was so lucky that he was coming to kpd to hand in his assignment.....

So, I told him that I'll introduce my two cute pretty group mates in my media management class in return of his kindness....

There he said, " I'm not interested..."

Okay okay.... ;p

It was such a co-incident that while we were heading to block A to pick yeeling up after she hands in their assignments, we passed by my friend's car where both of them were in the car...

So, I told Ck "there they are, my pretty group mates..."

Well, with a glance at them and I think the time that his car took to pass by their car was like for about 3 to 5 SECONDs perhaps???

(I don't think we took more than that by he way.... ;p hehehehe)

And HE, CK, was able to tell me that they aren't his cup of tea and both of them had baby fat.....

OMG!!!!!

There he said he was not interested and he was able to judge their looks with merely a glance at them???

Hmmm...well, I'll leave it for you to judge then....

hehehehehe.....

FaRmViLle = EVIL

I know that things that I’m gonna say later will be a little unbelievable,

however, trust me please~~~~~

I’m starting it with this,

I was being discriminated by a game!!!!

The next question in your mind will be,

“What? How could a game discriminate people??”

Seriously, I was discriminated by a game called “FARMVILLE”!!!!

If you do play this game, you will notice that many of us are allowed to send gifts to our friends/neighbors once a day ONLY.

However, I received 3 gifts from the same person today!!!

And previously, she was able to send 2 gifts to me per day….

Yea, I should feel happy that I could get more gifts…BUT!!!!! How come???

Can anyone tell me pleaseeeeee???

She even said that she can’t help it if Farmville likes her more!!!!

*throwing tantrum* + *rolling on the floor* + *stomping feet*

LUCKY

I was so stupid today that I've left my thumb drive in the learning space at level 9...

after doing my position paper for the ethics class, leaving the latest version in it....

when I realized that I've lost it, it was 3 and a half hours later!!!

OMG!!!!!

Thanks to Hui Yi, who's willing to run to level 9 and search for me in the middle of her experiment for her thesis, leaving her participant alone in the room.... =)

As you guys might have already guessed the ending by the title of this post,

she was able to find my thumb drive and it was THERE!!!!

Not stolen by anyone....

wuhooooo......

My First Impression

Today, another friend of mine told me that her first impression on me was

"静静的， 没有什么说话"

However, there's a but....

But "一开口说话，就把那静静的形象破坏了； 还是不要说话比较好" ....

Yet, I could still figure something out to make myself feel happy....

that IS

"我的样子还可以骗到人下。。。。静静的" wuahaha....

wuahahahahaha...no matter what my friends said after I told them this, I will still choose to believe my conclusion...hahahahaha.....

I'm QUIET!!!!!

A memorable day / Priorities in Life

Sometimes, I wondered how people decide on priorities in their lives...

It just seemed so easy for others to make up their mind and to make a decision...

Why can't I just be like them??? Why???

Today is such a contradictory day for me....

I've just finished watching a Korean drama titled 《雪之女王》。。。

This was a sad drama....

Nonetheless, it brings out some aspiring themes such as not to give up your own life even when you've lost something that's really important in your life....

"Life has to continue"

Then, my mood suddenly swing to the positive side when I realized that my lecturer was in Farmville being my neighbour and fertilized my plants too...wuahahahahahaha..... *grins*

忍无可忍， 勿须再忍

今天我做了一个FB的心理测验， 我的结果如下：

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“要引爆你的脾氣導火線，是一件不簡單的任務，因為你生氣時，其實也不會當眾動怒，你寧願一個人默默生悶氣，也不想說出來，更不要說當場發飆罵人，失去了你的風度，但是你難看的臉色，還是向所有看到你的人，用ＳＮＧ宣告了非常不爽的心情呢。”

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每一个人都有他的底线， 如果你超过了，那就别怪人家发怒。。。。

我自问不是一个很好脾气的人， 可是， 我的容忍度却也不低。。。

而且，还算是满高的。。。。

可是， 还是有人超过了。。。

所以，不要怪我的绝情， 就算我不说出来，不在你的脸前爆发，

也是不想以后“脸左左”而已。。。

知道了吗？？？

快乐

好像好久都没有感到快乐了。。。

简单的快乐和开心就那么的难得到吗？？？

曾经拥有的一颗赤子之心去哪了？？？

我还拥有着它吗？？

还是， 就是因为拥有着它，

所以才会被现实的残酷所蒙蔽着呢？？？

又有谁能救我？？？

下雨了

在这宁静的夜晚， 下起了雨呢。。。

我很喜欢雨后的清新空气。。。

所以在等待着。。。

等待的同时， 我也在为我大学最后的学期温习着期中考。。。

也在看戏。。。

唉，我究竟在干什么啊？？？

好像都专心不了。。。。

My "KIND" Sister

The Thesis was supposed to due today at 5pm.....

Thus, she asked for my help yesterday night in order to complete it on time and to be handed in TODAY!!!!!

So, as you guys might have already knew, yea.....

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I DIDN"T SLEEP FOR the WHOLE night for HER THESIS!!!!!

I didn't even do that for my OWN thesis.... =.=

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However, as 5pm passed.... she hasn't completed it yet, so???

She called her supervisor and her supervisor allowed her to hand it in TOMORROW!!!!!

WTH......

What have I done to deserve this???

She said she'll treat me buffet..... does all my energy and sleep worth only a buffet???

Hmmmmm....and my circadian rhythm too......

My mid-term will be on next week....I wonder if I can finish my revision on time now...

hmmm.....

I shall go and have a good rest now....

Birthday and Moon Cake

Happy Birthday, my dear Carmen!!!!

What a co-incidence that it was Moon Cake Festival that falls on the same day as your birthday....

Hope that you were doing well and get to celebrate it with your friends over there....

I'm not that stupid

Though I'm not smart, but I do know what you guys were talking about!!!!

This is because your "secret languages" were too obvious and I do understands it!!!!

I think that's why I sometimes feel so reluctant to go Yumcha with you guys....

If you guys were to share some stories and things that can't be heard by me and my the other friend, go ahead BUT please don't invite us to go along.....

I'm really sicked your behaviours....

Although I didn't not show it explicitly but that doesn't mean I don't mind...

OK?? Please don't test my patience level!!!!

Again

It seems retail therapy had not much effect on me already....

How? Any other therapy that I can go into??

Retail therapy did not give me the satisfaction that I used to have anymore...

Perhaps it was me who went to the wrong place or it was those product's fault that failed to fulfill my requirements??? Yet I still do buy it...why?? ?

Don't ask me why as I don't know the answer....

If I do, there wouldn't be so many brand new clothes in my wardrobe...

无言

最近， 情绪有点不受控制。。。

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心情也低落到了极点。。。

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这几天，静静的坐下想着想着，眼泪也会在不经意的时候掉了下来。。。

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太多事情在发生，地球也不会因为你而停止转动。。。

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可能是我想太多，还是抗压性退步了，所以掉下了情绪低落的陷阱。。。我不知道。。。

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还有，逆来顺受的感觉是很不好受的。。。

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没有一个人是完完全全了解另一个人，

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但是，我并不排除有“某人非常了解某人”这句话，因为这是有可能的。。。

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人也有忍耐的限度。。。

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可是， 我最近好像都失去了情绪上的控制而生了不少闷气，

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我的家人以为我在发不知明的脾气，其实我是在生自己闷气而以。。。

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唉唉唉。。。

New Skill

I learned a new skill recently.....
I do realized that it's not a new thing to a lot of people but I only knew it recently seriously....I learned it by myself and I'm still not very good at it......
Let's review what have I learned recently then...
Yay....I know how to download songs FINALLY!!!!! >.<

Group

Hmm.....Last week, my lecturer said that groups that stayed together will no longer stayed as groups when the common interest it's no longer there...

haha... This made me realizing that no wonder I sometimes feel reluctant to join some of the gatherings....

On the other hand, I do have a group of friends where we often hang out together although we've graduated...^.^

hehehe..I think this was due to our common interest in SHOPPING!!!!!

wuahahahahahaha....

Healthy Food

On Thursday, JengMun had just told us 7 unhealthy foods that we should not have and doughnuts were one of them...

I think that email had an impact on her which make her wanting to have HEALTHY foods when we went for a late lunch the other day....

She even wanted to forward the email to us... ^^"

Yet, that doesn't really affect me when it comes to Krispy Kreme...

Yesterday, when I reached home....it was Krispy Kreme that's on the table....

OMG....I ate 2 of them right away whitouht having a second thought...hehehe...

That's why...Delicious food can drive people crazy....wuahahaha...

Recently

Recently, I faced with multiple pain at different parts of my back and my face too ;(

I feel restless and I had nightmares almost everyday....

I couldn't get myself awake in the morning too....

What happened to me??

Hungry

我从来都不知道原来洗牙是这样痛的！！！！！

我吃不到硬的食物， 现在很饿很饿！！！！

今天一天都没有吃到很多东西。。。好后悔， 早知道洗牙后吃不到硬的东西， 今天早上就听妈妈的话， 吃了早餐才去见牙医。。。

还要补牙呢。。。

我好好奇，她又要收我多少钱。。。

光阴飞逝

我真的很佩服古人所创造的语言。。。

我发现原来时间真的是可以用“飞”来形容它。。。

不知不觉中， 年终又悄悄地来临了。。。

我是在写支票的时候发现的， 因为我写到了04/09/09。。。

也在这时候， 我发现年终悄悄地接近我们。。。。

我；也要毕业了。。。这是我的最后一个学期了。。。

中秋节也要来临了。。。

还有， 圣诞节也已经悄悄地接近我们了。。。

很快的， 新的一年又来到了。。。

我； 明年的我，将会做些什么呢？？？

Late

For the very first time in my entire college classes, I was late for her class...

And I was being scolded in front of the entire class....

Seriously, I really thought that the class was at 10am instead of 9am....

Being LATE for class was not my style at ALL!!!!!!

I would say that this was the most embarrassed moment in my college life....

sigh and depressed...

I don't know

The followings just came into my mind...hehehehe...

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jeng mun the talkative

mei san the shopaholic

carol the eater

CK the jin guat tau

mia the drama addict

peisan the shum lai lai

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wuahahahahahaha....

I'm dying

I'm dying in the sea of seafood.....
When I was about to think that I can have some normal food....
They kept ordering seafood.....
Prawn and fish, prawns and fish, again and again...
I wondered do they love seafood that much????

Lucky

When I heard this song- Lucky by Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat this afternoon, I knew I have heard it some where before....

Yea..I think it was once in JengMun's blog... ;p

Originally, I categorized this song as a sad song and I don't really like it...Coz it seems to have the ability to make me feel sad....

However, when I go google the lyrics out...I like this song very very much....

Then, the image of a person, sitting in a wood made restaurant, looking to the sea...and it was raining came into my mind...I think this song matches the image a lot....hehehe....

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And it reminds me of the same song title by Britney Spears - Lucky...

Yea, in case some of you might not realized that I'm a huge Britney fan!!!!

I still do....despite her private life... ;p

Great Lunch

Just came back from a lunch atTenji with some GREAT people

(which is my lecturer and few of my friends la).....

What a nice and joyful day!!!

I truly enjoyed the day....

This was the fullest lunch that I've ever had in my entire life except for dinner...;p

There are countless food in my stomach now...including the THREE half-cooked shrimps...hehehe....

Hopefully, they'll be digested soon..... :p

The night was too young for me to sleep now.....

due to the stomach as well as today's lunch....

hehehehehe....

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发梦都没有想到会有那么的一天。。。。

呵呵，我和我的thesis supervisor还有几个一样是under她的朋友一起请了她去Tenji吃午餐。。。

哈哈哈，这应该是一件毕生难忘的事情。。。。

我们谈了很多，也有self-disclosure一点，所以， closeness 应该有增加。。。;P

看来，她还蛮随和的，不是想像中那么的恐怖和冰冷。。。

到最后时，因为火的问题， 那一盘汤和其它的料煮不到，　所以就有了三只不熟的虾。。。

我居然厚脸皮到问她是不是要剥给我吃。。。;p　

想一想。。。。有可能吗？？

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想不到，　她竟然很“顺坦”的剥了那些虾壳，还拿给我吃！！！！

wuahahahahha....

开心！！！开心！！！

（Mia, 我写了，您满意了吗？hehehehe...）

还有，还有，原来我的这一个朋友也能吃很多东西的，

看她的身材，用纸片人来形容她，也可以吧。。。

想不到，她的食量还蛮大的。。。

哈哈。。。好羡慕哦。。。

怎么我身边都有着种人。。。

吃都吃不胖。。。。

大家。。。

快乐的时间种是过的非常的快，一下子，这顿午餐就结束了。。。还有，

一定要记得这一天,因为它是特别的一天,也是难忘的一天...

2009/08/27

偶像

什么是偶像的包袱？？
根据我的理解， 偶像的包袱的意思应该是当偶像的苦衷。。。
一般来说，因为偶像拥有大量的fans, 所以他们的恋爱和婚姻都不太敢公开， 因为害怕会失去fans。。。还有，为了避免fans会有极端的行为， 例如自杀等等。。。还有就是社会责任， 因为他们不想他们的fans因为他们的私事而去伤害自己。。。
可是， 现在的社会思想应该比较开通， 不会计较偶像结婚生小孩。。。
还有，说道社会责任， 个人觉得偶像有某程度的社会责任，不然， Forbes每年所选的世界100名权威人士和用偶像来募捐和筹款不就没效了吗？？
偶像吸毒， 打架， 犯规都被报道在新闻里， 然后在警惕年轻人不要犯错。。。
那说谎呢？？
说谎是错的吗？？
本人还蛮注重诚实， 所以一直以来都对某些人与艺人的否认而感到愤怒。。。
虽说那是别人的私事， 可是对于被拍到照片还不成认， 和对比照片的不同后又不承认的人， 实在是感到愤怒。。。。
难道说谎就可以被原谅吗？？因为它没有伤害到任何人？？？
诚实不是从小就被老师和父母灌输的观念吗？？？
艺人说谎是有苦衷的。。。对不起， 我不受这一套。。。
有时候， 说了可能还比偷偷摸摸的好。。。就好象有些艺人， 他光明正大， 反而没人要拍呢。。。还有， 俗话说“吃得咸鱼抵得渴”。。。
艺人赚得钱多， 就要承受这份工作所带来的压力和后果啊。。。
不要一直的在喊什么没有私隐。。。
等到你不红时， 我想应该没有人要拍你的时候， 你还在担心受怕。。。怎么没人拍你呢。。。
想要上报都很难了。。。。

人会在不知不觉中成为金钱的奴隶

我突发奇想， 有一个故事想要写

题：人的一生
p/s: 主角可以是女的， 也可以是男的

有一个年轻人，在念书时有抱负，有理想， 所以努力的读书， 希望有一天可以出人头地。。。
对这样的一个人来说， 一般人都会鼓励他， 希望他事业有成， 有朝一日衣锦还乡。。。

可是， 这并不是理所当然的。。。我们都太单纯了。。。
对于一般的家庭来说，就算是双薪家庭， 如果不是高薪一族或者买了保险的话， 恐怕很难可以负担得起子女出国念书的愿望吧。。。就算在本地念大学， 可能也要贷款才念得起。。。。

那毕业了呢？？是继续念书， 还是早点出来工作， 好帮轻家里的负担和还清债务。。。

几经思量， 他还是个孝顺的人；所以，还是出来工作帮轻家庭开销和供弟妹念书吧。。。

再慢慢存钱未来再出国深造。。。

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《未来》

（我认为未来以及希望，就是令人发奋图强的原动力吧。）

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好不容易， 找到了一份收入不错又有兴趣的工作了， 可是每天搭公共交通， 好像买一辆汽车比较划算， 就办了买车及贷款手续， 接下来要供车， 还借贷， 生活应该是过的还可以罢了。。。别忘了可能他还要拍拖。。。
就这样， 可能过了5年10 年吧， 人的要求会越来越高的， 不可能会stagnant.
薪水一定也提高了不少吧， 在这个时候， 还想出国念书吗？？
可能也已经遗忘了这久违的梦想了。。。
会考虑放弃现在的高薪职位吗？？

还有可能已经退休的父母， 弟妹也才刚出社会， 不可能有能力照顾那年老的双亲，

是问有谁会选择放下这一切的一切， 然后带着自己毕生的积蓄出国来一圆那久违的梦想。。。我不知道。。。
还有， 还有，不要忘了他可能还有男女朋友催婚呢。。。
这可怎么办才好啊？？
一个人的决定，影响好几个人啊。。。

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责任；梦想；自私；

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难能可贵的高薪， 出国念完书， 还不一定能找到这么高薪的工作呢。。。
这一切的一切， 钱都静悄悄的在作祟。。。

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如果年轻时有钱出国念书， 这个故事就完全的改写了！！！！！
在外国念完了书， 找到一份工作， 然后慢慢的升级加薪，结婚；买车；换车；买新房子，一切的一切都来得那么的自然和那么的完美。。。

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哎， 钱钱钱钱钱钱
《金钱诱罪》 是香港TVB在拍的一部戏， 我只是纯粹的喜欢他的戏名， 并且觉得他的戏名很有意思。如果用广东话来说，就是金钱有罪了。。。
其实，我觉得金钱本身是没有罪的， 因为它只不过是一種货币。可能是人的执著和追求令金钱背上了一个“所有罪恶的开端”的罪名....
就上面的故事来说， 人始终还是会在不知不觉中成为了金钱的奴隶。。。。

Thursday, 27/8/09

THURSDAY

THURSDAYy

THURSDAYYY

THURSDAYYYY

THURSDAYYYYYYY.....................

COME FASTER.....

COME!!!!!

COME TO ME!!!!!!

hehehehehehe....

EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THURSDAY TO COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

27th AUGUST 2009

COME TO ME............................

BAYBEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY....IT"S OVER......

Today is my Thesis defense and presentation. It was at 11.50am to 12.20pm but it was delayed for a while....hehe...It's all OVER!!!!!!

It was a life experience though.....

Mr Kenneth said my presentation was succint and short.....

But he did question me a lot and I wasn't really able to answer his questions...sigh....

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I'VE SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETED MY THESIS!!!!!!!!!!!!

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However, woohooooooo.....I can now do anything I want and go shopping and sleep as many hours as I wished as well as watch dramas till the wee hours without feeling guilty already!!!!!

My care-free holiday officially starts TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!YAY................. ;p

I wanna go and watch The proposal!!!!! Anyone???? HEHEHE.....

Preferably during the night time as I need to work...wuahahahaha....

AGAIN...

I think I'm getting better....

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Due to another round of compulsive buying.... ;p

Being Impulsive

I shopped impulsively AGAIN.....

As usually, I bought things that I don't really need and that I rarely use it.....

I just bought it for the sake of owning it...

My friend said it was retail therapy, meaning I buy things in order to make myself feeling better or to improve my mood...

YES...I can't help myself AGREEING with her and I realized that maybe I was not a SHOPAHOLIC as my friends said but I was doing RETAIL THERAPY to myself.....hehehe...

Depressed

Sad.

Demotivated.
I can DEEPLY understands you now...Can you hear me???

冲动

我看到了AirAsia 的promotion, 去Melbourne, Perth, 和Gold Coast 来回只须RM298 （All in fare).
我真的有一股冲动想要直接定飞机票然后再决定要怎样玩....hehehehe

Pointless

What's the point of me registering a new Internet service by Streamyx with so called a WIFI service with 1 Mbps since it was even slower than the broadband service that I originally used???
I only tried to load my GMail with it, yet, it says my line was too slow that I need to log in the html version. Stupid!!!!Stupid!!!!!!Stupid!!!!!!
Why la our Internet system can't be improved to a better one???

SIGH.....

Vicious cycle and differential treatment

The world it's actually not very big and I had always wonder why....


Why things that I've done previously was wrong but it eventually became a norm and correct when it was done to the same person by another person????


To put it in a simple term.....同人不同命， 同伞不同柄

Depressed

I've just finished watching the drama 《红线》

Mia Lim

yea..this was the person who introduced quite a lot of nice dramas and movies to me...


However, I still don't understand why she always recommended me those movies and dramas which leads people into deep thought also to think about life issues.....Although I have already told her that I prefer shows that can be "easily digested".... Why??Why??? Answer me....

From "Love of Siam" to 《恋空》 to 《红线》....

虽然是我自己想看《红线》先的， 只不过我只知道它有电影版， 不知道它原来有连续剧...
看了《红线》以后， 才发现， 怎么会有那么坎柯的人生经验....可是又不是没有可能发生...

可能这一部戏比较贴近现实的生活吧， 虽然我又觉得它的故事迁涉太多人了...但是， 这很可能就是我们在经历着的东西， 只是我们都没有发现而已... 看了以后真的真的有感触而不是区区的看完了一部戏...

Fantasy vs. Reality

While I was trying to sleep....
I saw a car bang at me while I was trying to cross the road in front of FRIM..
And I died....
And I wasn't feeling not good about it...What does this means???

怨气

我有一肚子的怨气没有地方抒发!!!!!!!
WHY???WHY???? WHY ME?????
I hate it!!!I hate it!!! I hate it!!!!!!
每次都是这样， 难道真的得为五斗米折腰吗？？？
我讨厌这样。。。
我几时才可以离开这一切的一切？？？
我做的永远都不够，永远都错吗？？？
和我原来预算得都不一样。。。。
我有aware要改的。。。。可是却永远都是我不对。。。
为甚么？？？为甚么？？？

What??

Why is there such a kind of supervisor in this world??? huh????
If the topic is not good or inappropriate, just tell the student, why make her suffer now with so little time left????
This is not very kind and SMART of you!!!!
Sigh...

一个人

原来， 我真的很享受一个人的时候和空间。可能是因为我的家里的人很多， 又没有试过一个人有一间房间， 所以特别的喜欢一个人的时候吧。。。

每每在这些时候， 我才可以感受得到心灵的平静。。。

这也是我最喜欢和最最最最享受的的。。。

在这些时候， 我绝对绝对不会选择早睡，因为不想浪费这些难能可贵的机会。。。

我总觉得在这些时候做些甚麽都是高尚的。。。

通常我都是在这些时候看书。。。 ;p

Happy Birthday...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY>>>A BOY (my bro)
May your wish comes true!!!!!!
And I wished I could afford a Subaru for you too...coz this means that I am rich...wuahhaahha

Point of views

在做着thesis 的同时， 由于很不懂要怎样写， 所以在一个朋友的blog的朋友里click了一些他的朋友的blog来看。 发现到原来很多人对很多事都有不同的表达方式。
由于不认识那个人，但是很喜欢他的一个post...和我的post 所要表达的雷同。。。


Sometimes, I just feel reluctant to reveal what you have done only...
It doesn't mean that I don't know what you've done actually...
Yet, I'll do still "reveal" your true faces if I still do care about you and I'm not really comfortable at faking though... (If I didn't, it doesn't mean I don't care about you, it's just that I don't think you can take it)...
Yet, you'll never know I knew it because I didn't reveal...

Silent Night

It has been raining since 2 am... Ican hear to wind blowing and the rain...
I bet that the air must be really fresh out there....
I love these kind of weather and the silence....
我可以感觉得到心灵的平静。。。好久没有那样的感觉了。。。

haha

It's not that I've nothing to blog about...but please look forward to the next post because I think and I foresee that it can be a long one..hehe..let me focus on my thesis draft and then I'll post it....
Till then.... ;p BYEEEE...

WC=QC

I don't know where did I get this idea..perhaps, this is what people called serendipity...
Let's see ....Ms Winnee used to organize colloquium almost every semester, and she teaches most of the stat courses (last time).
Typically, most of the presenters are from stat courses...
Then, she wants students to present to her before they can even present in front of the students. lecturers, and some other people in the colloquium....
In a way, she's the quality controller (QC) of colloquium too!!!!
Don't you think so??? This is so interesting!!! And she tend to use WC to represent herself in course outline...that's where I the WC from...

In conclusion....

WC=QC

Karma

I believed in KARMA..Do you??

I don't know

I'm not sure whether I was too free or was I that bored....
I just had a great chat whom I was not sure who he was when I begun to chat...
Of course, I asked at last and now I knew who he was.. :p
He was actually my primary school mate...haha...

Laziness

I'm a super lazy person!!!!!

I haven't even start writting on my Thesis 2, I don't know what I'm waiting for....

Am I really that "jin"??? huh???

I'm not sure either... ;(

Thinking

I'm thinking what should I buy for my brother for his birthday...
Any suggestions???
Though I knew he wanted a new watch....but I wanted to give him a surprise...
Furthermore, the watch is not cheap...I shall see where should I get the money...hehe..

:p

What?????!!!!!!

As I am enjoying my beloved show, I found out that there was no epi 38 there!!!!

WHAT!!!!!

I don't want....sob..sob....

I want my epi 38...if not, it'll not be linked!!!!!!

How am I going to watch like that!!!!!

HELP!!!!

Can't wait..

Yea, I just would like to start this before I go tomorrow.... (to be precise, it should be later ;P)
My plan for later was to go jogging before my buffet...hehe..to reduce some guilt....then, I'm going to do something that I've not done for so long...I'm going to shop till I drop!!!!
Let's see what happens tomorrow....

Dental Check-up

OMG...I can't believe it....
My teeths were not in a very good condition, luckily the young pretty looking dentist said no worries and it can still be save...hehe....
I did 4 x-rays for my TEETHS as well....Now I know how my teeths look like.... :)
Wonder how many of my cells died during the process...
And, I never knew that it's so expensive for a normal dental check-up....
Basically, I only talked to her and did the x-rays only...and it cost me hundreds.. ;(

It's not the END yet!!!!!

You think that I have finished all my exams and the semester is over???

NO!!!!

I still have my Thesis 2 to go...and I haven't even started on a single word....

More things to research...

And I'm back to the routine of having to work all day long from Monday to Saturday.... ;(

Worstly, I need to face the evil big fat pig satan lady in my office!!!!

No, I shall not contaminated pig's good name....the EVIL BIG FAT SATAN!!!!!!

(no lady coz a lot of people never ever recognized her as a she when they meet her at the very first time)

Exam Week

I still have one more paper to go on Thursday!!!!!!
Wish me luck.....

不幸；生与死

话说昨天晚上我爸爸的工厂外发生了火灾， 几辆汽车被火烧得不堪设想， 幸好没有人受伤，损失也没有很大。 很可惜， 看到了不是很正确的新闻报道， 真的是太令人失望了。 而且还夸大了损失的金额。 原来，我们平时听到和看到的东西都不可以尽信。 其实早就知道这道理， 只是没有deeply think about it. 现在会牢牢记着， 作为前车之鉴。

不幸的事情还有一宗， 我的太婆今天下午去世了， 她今年98岁。
我很少去太婆的家， 但是在那里倒度过不少快乐的时间。
在那里， 就好象作文里一样， 弟弟都和其他的亲戚的小孩到溪边游泳； 而我就和姐姐， 姑姑和其他亲戚们在玩牌。 虽然有时候会觉得闷， 但是不至于讨厌。
以后应该会很少在去那了。。。感到一丝丝的不舍。。。

Rain

It's raining heavily in Seri Gombak now.....
I feel cold.....
I feel scared.....
I feel miserable at the same time.....
Too many things to be completed yet too little time.....
I noticed I love to ask how and why.....
I'm going to do the same this time..... ;p
Why?? Why do I feel scared??? Why am I worrying???
I know I should know the answers...it's just that I'm reluctant to face it and to think about it...

I'm talking to myself??

My friend said that my blogs were like I'm talking to myself???
Is that true??
I think maybe it was due to the fact that I often have no one to talk to during night time and I obviously used to update my blogs during night time. Thus, I tend to blog as if I'm talking to someone (myself, maybe)???

Insomnia

I'm facing insomnia again...
I don't now why, I just don't feel like studying for my exams and doing my Thesis...
Where did the peace in my mind go to??
Come back to me, baby...
I need you...
I need a peaceful mind psychologically, mentally, and physically.

Shocked =)

I met with my Thesis supervisor today and she said that the reason that my marks was slightly lower than my the other friends was due to my first draft was not that good. I was really shocked and didn't know how to react. When I told my friends about this, they rang a bell in my head....
Yea, then what's the point of me sending drafts if I was going to be graded by the draft?? huh??
Weren't drafts supposed to help me to score better as I have improved at the final paper??
Tell me??Anyone???
However, I still have to admit that I am satisfied with the grade I have la...
Furthermore, she said that she was quite happy with our performances...
Cheers~~~~~~~(to Mia, Lai Ying, Kah Hwei, Ji Kwan, n Vivienne) =)

* Anyone know what non-paramatic test I should run for an ANOVA??

I think I've made her angry by asking her bout the draft...how???

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为什么我的line那么的慢？？？
我要看我的戏！！！
就要大结局了！！！
为什么不让我看？？？？

异想天开的想法！！！

如果能把自己给弄昏迷， 然后在100 年过后醒来看一看以后的世界， 那该有多好啊。。。
然后再昏迷， 再看一看200 年后的世界。。。
然后， 一直不断的重复。。。又永远不会老，
一直维持这个时候的膜样， 是不是很好的idea???
我自己很想梦想成真.....

原来人真的是habitual 的动物

我渐渐的习惯了她不在我的身边，
我甚至害怕他的回归，
我也不懂如何再次面对他，我很害怕，
也不知道为什么睡不着。
我觉得我病了， 不知名的病，
很恐怖一下，对
什么事都不感兴趣，
胸口也好像累积着一团气，很不舒服。

Clean up my wardrode

06/16/09

In order to gain my interest back, I plan to tidy up my wardrobe tonight...

so that I can buy more... ;p

and to finish my reflection paper as well???

Then I can indulge myself to watch drama again???

hmm...sounds like a good plan...

I like myself being productive and to be able to get things done... :p

Wish me luck....

06/17/09

I didn't managed to complete either one as well as my drama due to the slow line...

Well, it's ok...I'll try to do it today then...hehehe... ;p

06/19/09

2.45am

I am struggling to finish the hell reflection paper!!!!

and I want to go swimming tomorrow, I have to get this done in order to focus on other things!!!!

Yet, with my super low productivity, I don't think I'll be able to make it done tonight.. ;(

What should I do?? My ability and resources were not enough to cope with my stressors...HOW???

p/s: Congratulations to my sis who scored really well during her last semester...

5.19am

I am finally done with m reflection paper..down to cleaning up my wardrobe now.. :p

I'm Tired

I'm sick of my daily routine!!!!

I'm sick of doing assignments!!!!!

I'm sick of writing reports!!!

I'm sick of explaining!!!

I'm sick of thinking!!!

I'm sick of everything basically!!!

I'm sick of food even....

I'm sick of talking too.....

Worst, I'm not interested in shopping recently...

What happened to me?????

What a pathetic life.....

I'm indulging myself

I am doing what I like the most at this point of time, watching dramas...
Last time, I hardly watch any drama during my semesters...
Thanks to this person named Mia Lim, I am now addicted in doing so as it is so convenient...
OMG!!!!!
I'd better stop this and get back to my studies...

Special Thanks to .... Ms Winnee

OMG, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!!!

MY BELOVED LECTURER AS WELL AS MY SUPERVISOR WISHED ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW SURPRISE I WAS & HOW NICE WAS THAT????

I WAS REALLY REALLY HAPPY AND TRYING TO STAY ON THE GROUND

(coz I'm worried that my happiness will fly me up to the sky!!!!) :p

MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

First, I would like to thank each and everyone who celebrated my birthday with me yesterday as well as those who wished me Happy Birthday...

Really felt touched to have so many people wishing me happy birthday!!!!

Unresponsible Participants!!!!

Why in the world there are such people?????

WHY???

They signed up for my experiment and they missed it!!!!

Then, the second time!!!!!

Then, what's the point of ME re-arranging for the second time for you if you were to MISS it AGAIN????

Hey people, never ever do what those people did to me!!!!

It's disappointing!!!!!

Great

Thanks to my dear friends who spent their precious time to celebrate my birthday with ME!!!!
Although it's only a short one, but it's SWEET!!!!
Thanks...

Experiments

I am here, once again...
trying to finish all my experimentssss, till this Friday, I'll be done with all my experiments!!!!!

颓废的一天

今天本来打算要作assignment的， 可是不知道为什么就是提不起精神来。
谁可以来救我呢？？Due date 也越来越接近了。很怕！！！！！

Confused

I KNOW I AM VERY TIRED ALREADY....

(I only slept f0r about 8 to 9 hours in 3 DAYZ!!!!!)

BUT, I AM NOT FEELING SLEEPY AT ALL.....

THOSE WHO KNOW ME WILL KNOW THAT THIS IS VERY UNUSUAL TO ME....

I USED TO SLEEP SO MUCH ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME???

CAN ANYONE HELP ME???

PLEASE..................

Good Morning

No, I didn't wake up so early...I had just finished my reflection paper just now and I am planning to go to sleep now....byeeeeeee... :p

Mid terms

I regretted that I never study properly for my exam.. ;(

Addicted

I'm addicted to this korean show called "we're married"..I translated it from mandarin though, it might not be that accurate.. :p
Personally, I think it's quite fun watching it because I enjoy watching it and it seems to help me to release my stressesssssssssssss......
However, there's sad part in that show too... I just can't take it...
Yet, I still have the STRONG URGE to watch it...and I can't help myself...It does disrupt my daily living...thus...I concluded that I am addicted to it already....
I won't deny it....
Due to my super SLOW line...I've been through the longest 12 minutes ever just to see one of the couples met...OMG...As I've said earlier, I just can't help myself to resist from watching it although I am having mt midterms next week..
I'm scared +++++, at the same time wanting to watch this show!!!!!!

己所不欲，勿施于人

这是我对这几天和朋友讨论后， 我的想法。
成经我也有过类似的经验，不过，对方没有解释， 并且当作没有一回事。
这， 真的很令我受伤。
可是 ， 我有一个比较好的解决方法。 因为我会说出来！！！！
虽然说了会引起不必要的麻烦， 可是， 这是我的选择。你喜欢还是我喜欢？:p
其实， 在这一次的事件里， 我只能说， 我只知道其一， 不知道其他 的。
所以， 我是带着偏见来看这一次的事件的。
不过， 我真的觉得有人作得太过分了。
这是我的看法， 因为有人真的小看了自己所作所为会影响到别人。
是不是他们太过individualistic 呢？ 可是，这又不符合他们平时的形象。
I’M TOTALLY CONFUSED!!!!

如果那个人对你不重要，那他说的话也不重要

你有没有陈经很介意人家所说的话而不开心过呢？你又有没有因为那些话而耿耿于怀呢？

‘如果有的话，那就代表那个说那些话的人对你很重要’。

因为我有一个朋友说，如果那个人对你不重要，那他说的话也不重要 (and vice versa)。

可是，我并不时100% 的认同这一句话。

因为，有时候，我们并不是重视那个人，或是在意 那个人，
我们而是自私 的纯粹在意自己的 image 和关心 其他人如何看自己。

可是， 又有人说，这样不是太幸苦了吗？难道你只为了人家的想法而活吗？

那么， 在我看来，这些都要靠个人的适应能力了。

如果你可以只活在自己的世界里， 那当然没有问题了。

可是， 当你选择醒来时， 你可能适应不到现实的残酷。

这就是现实。

互相遷就

我覺得互相遷就是與人相處很重要的一個觀念。
可是，當某一方面不覺得另一方面在遷就他時， 問題也就接踵而來。
一方面覺得我付出的很多，可是另一方又不珍惜， 這真的會很令人傷心。
這不單單發生在愛情里， 我覺得這發生在任何一種關系里。
朋友，兄弟姐妹，家人。。。

有時候， 還為了顧及他們的感受而假裝不知道一些事情， 其實我們又不是盲的， 也不是聾的， 很多事我們是知道的， 千萬不要以為 別人不知道。

如要人不知， 除非己莫為。

Running my Experimentssssss

Here I am, in Ms Winnee's office, waiting for my participants to come for my experiment....

But, I was late!!!!

And the first session was canceled, then, another participant didn't turn up for my experiment....

So, I basically sat there doing nothing but blogging and surfing the web... :p

Isn't this fun???

How often can you sit in your lecturer's room alone and you are free to do anything??? :D

Reflection Paper

I planned to finish my reflection paper before Sunday...Look at the time now..I just started to work on it...
I don't know how to write it, because I didn't really pay attention in class. :p
But I shall complete it soon so that I have enough time on my Thesis...
To be honest, I can now understand why my friend had a mild depression while she was completing her thesis...I can totally understand you now... :p
I don't like myself being so unproductive!!!!
Where are my energies and my enthusiastic back in those days???

p/s: This semester is boring to me too, despite the fact that I am doing my Thesis 2 this semester and had a really tight schedule, maybe it was due to the fact that we hang out too often last week. :p

Hesitated

I'm not sure whether I should tell my friends about this blog because I don't really want people to read all my thoughts. But I find myself contradicting myself because "what's the point of a blog if I don't want people to read and see it??" Right??? okay, I shall 顺其自然....

Maybe I was just too boring being alone in my room ever since my sis left and I had no one to turn to in telling my random thoughts... I don't know...Let's see.. :p

That's NOT what I MEANT

I think I had speak something wrong today...Not really wrong but something that had cause people to misunderstand what I mean..While I was driving back home, I was thinking and reflecting on it...Why didn't I explain it to them right away??? I don't know, maybe it was due to my headache... I was too lazy to speak...Can you imagine me being that tired and lethargic?? okay...I will explain to some of them tomorrow...

I DO THINK THAT THEY DESERVED THE GRADES!!!!!

p/s: ever since I changed to my new car, my side mirrors has been the victim of the motorcyclists!!!!! Why?? They always hit on my side mirrors and just ran away like that!!! It happened today as well!!!

A good start

Hmm..I chose to start blogging at the busiest time that I'm having in my life. I don't know what happened to me, but I just feel like having it right now...
Yea, here I am now...being a blogger.... :p