My friend sees her Ph.D. journey as having a beautiful end.
Good for her and I have had a different experience, towards the end of my Ph.D. journey.
I was brutally traumatized... no other than the person who should be educating the next generation.
I believed I experienced psychological trauma...
My brain was in a fight mode all the time, I felt burnout and tired, but I'm glad that it didn't last long.
I'm lucky to have supportive ex-colleagues who are my friends now,
their positive energy and supportive and practical help!
I'm blessed...
Although they don't know I have a blog, but I guess one day, if they googled their own names, I hope they will see this.
Dr Kyu Kyu Win, Dr Kyu Kyu Than, (Dr.-to-be) Malarvani, & Dr. Azlina Razak...
(Dr.-to-be) Puvanesh, he has the most positive energy among people that I have ever met...
He was also the same person who changed my perspective that I'm blessed...
I'm still waiting for my senate letter, but I really thought that I will not make it..
Somehow, will all their help, I managed to submit all the necessary documents.
I will leave the rest in God's hand.
I also feel sorry towards my mom, she doesn't know anything but she has to deal with all my negative energy and unstable emotions...
I have also embarked on another journey that I have wanted 10 years ago,
I noticed the attitudes, anticipation, excitement, and expectations were different from what I have imagined.
Sometimes, I think perhaps my sister was right,
过去的事情就是过去了的，不要留念。
但是我不死心，所以我还是做出了一个出格的决定。
希望两年后回来看，我不会后悔的！
