Life is so hard

Life has been really harsh to me that I thought of this yesterday. 

Life is hard, 

Live it, or 

Leave it.

and then, I thought, does this imply some suicidal thoughts in me? 

I don't know.

But, I doubted if I could get another life if I die.

I faced with so many obstacles while I tried to reach my dream while people around me seemed to have a smoother journey as compared to me. 

They were on their paths already, while I'm still trying very hard to be going on the path that I want. 

I felt so far yet so close to it.

I feel glad that I'm able to write and post this on my blog.

I never felt so good about writing, but I appreciate it very much now.

Because I found out that writing helps me through my solitude moments, 

as well as my depressed moments.

     

or

there's just too much hatred in me?