I don't know

I'm seriously not in a good mood state, 

I feel so bad when I knew that I'll be stuck here and I can't leave,

I can feel deep down in my heart, the urge to leave this place,

But I just couldn't, 

I feel so bad that my tears can't help dropping but I need to stop it,

because I'm worried that others might see it,

I'm feeling so down.

我经常性的觉得怨气冲天，

不，是越来越频繁的感觉到自己的怨气。

我不懂它们是怎么来的。

连我自己都讨厌我自己怨气冲天的样子。

我到底怎么了？

是我最近的烦恼太多了吗？

我承认，有overwhelming的感觉。

也许是最近在看的戏剧也对我有影响吧。

里面的奴婢真的很惨。

我觉得应该是correlation, 不然就是multiple regression.

生活也太不如我意了。

Do I need a counselor?

I guess,
I actually knows.
Perhaps,
it was because I wanted to leave so much,
yet, I know that the reality doesn't allowed me to,
thus,
I'm in such a mood.
A complicated one.
It's so hard to accept the reality.
I feel bad,
very,
very.