I wonder if its really true that if I wanted to have something,
as long as I kept thinking about it & do things that lead me towards it; I will get it eventually.
This is not working on me right now.
I wanted to leave this place so much yet I'm still stuck here.
Why is it so that I often don't get what I want?
WHY!?
WHY!?
WHY!?
I know that my situation is getting serious.
I even start hearing voices last month.
Luckily, I didn't happen this month.
I'm reaching to the limit of my emotional control & I'm going to breakdown anytime soon.
I know. Because I just let my tears dropped in front of my sister & brother when I'm in the office.
I'm so sicked of making up lies for I cried because I'm just feeling sad.
I'm out of lies to tell when people saw me crying.
My thoughts were so extreme that I wanted to just leave this place although I know I can't.
Nobody can help me except changing my own thoughts.
I know!
But I just can't control it sometimes.
July isn't my month.
For the number of posts I post,
the more I post,
the more depressed I go.
I'm so sorry,
I didn't want my blog to be so sad.
Suggested to see a counselor :D
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