Dream

Yesterday, I dreamed that I finally confronted my mother after all these years of injustice... 

She was very angry both emotionally and at me for confronting her...

I don't know where did I gather the courage to actually confront her, 

maybe because I was too stressed out recently and I am deadly to know why didn't she support me to study abroad rather than dumping $$$ into renovating the stupid house?

Does gender matters that much?

If the person who wanted to study abroad was my brother, will she change her mind?

What am I supposed to do with it?

Do I not deserve a better future?

Do I not deserve to study abroad?

Am I supposed to accept all these crap and pretends nothing has happened and try to live happily in the future despite all these crap?

Will I be able to accept all these and life with it? 

Do I really want to confront her?

Yes, I do because if I don't, there'll always be something in my heart. 

But if I do, maybe she'll get really angry and things will get really ugly, am I ready to face this?

Do I want to put myself into that situation?