Blessing in Disguises

Well, it has been a difficult year for me, 

I'm turning 29, and what was happening through these few months weren't really exactly what I thought it would be...

I graduated from my masters last year, 

then I thought I would like to start my PhD and get a job.  

But, getting a decent job offer was difficult, 

there were interviews, but no news actually came back to me.

The amount of applications I made were really a lot that I actually lost count... 

I was so desperate last month that my friends and I scheduled a trip to Genting just to get drunk. 

*Iknowthisisnotagoodbehavior*

The reason was I have never been drunk, 

so I thought maybe getting drunk might help me to forget things that are happening now... like being jobless...

All my other friends were kinda employed and started working, 

I feel happy for them... But I also felt even more desperate...

Well I'm not exactly jobless, I know many people thought I do, 

but I was actually helping in my dad's office and doing some volunteering work.

Last month, there was also a moment that I just felt like leaving Malaysia and go for a long holiday maybe... 

But I quickly realized that trying to get away from all these is not a good idea, 

so I continued to send job applications...

Then, a "strange" part-time offer came in, it wasn't a good offer,
and things ended up quite awfully. 

I felt abandonment, so I was quite unhappy... 

Then this week, my birthday falls on a Friday, 12/6, and I'm turning 29 before I'm 30. 

On Monday, I received a call from a company and scheduled an interview on Tuesday, 

an email scheduling an interview on Thursday. 

Then I realized maybe losing the part-time job is a blessing in disguise. 

and I stopped feeling bad about it. 

But I was lost on Thursday and was late for my interview... 

*ohcrap*

Then,

on Thursday, 

I was officially diagnosed with hyperthyroidism and I started taking medications right away. 

But on that very evening, I received a call saying that my offer letter was out!

OH MY GOSH!!!

I was like what, another blessing in disguise? I really can't believe it!!!

Although things are unofficial for now, but I think it really is a blessing before I actually turned 29...

Then I told everyone who are close with me about this because it's so exciting!!!

My family also celebrated my 29th birthday on Thursday night itself, 

and I started thinking that can anyone's life get any better... 

*PraisetheLord*

Friday evening,my cousin told me about promotions in Marina Sand Bay Singapore since I'm going to Singapore next week for a conference. The promotion was really good and I will spend a night there. It was really a great promotion and I'm really excited about it right now. 

Again, could anyone's life be any better than this? 

All these blessings in disguise... How can I not love it? 

Just like the Chinese idiom, 塞翁失马，焉知非福.
At the same time, I am reminding myself of being moderate and to avoid 乐极生悲.
After all, I am beginning to be independent finally. =)

On Friday night, I went dinner with my friends and we had a wonderful night together!

Therefore, here I am at 1:13am, not asleep, I know this is not good for my health, so I better finish this fast and move on...

This is me, making a wish, hopefully,
the dreams come true day will come to us at the right moment. =)

This was such a memorable week for me because there were so many ups and downs,

what I actually learned from this experience was to Be Grateful of everything we have and what we faced each day because we never really know whether these are blessings in disguise/an experience that help us grow...

It's just that we have not realized it in the way it should be...
If you believe that everything happen in our life for a reason...

Have faith, 

everything will get better each day. 

Faith.

p/s: This is another counting my blessings post. I think I will keep doing this.

The Owls Cafe

这间cafe位于Bukit Jalil, 因为在Serdang的公公家做对年，

所以就在仪式完了以后顺便到这里喝茶，

毕竟如果从我家到这里的话实在是太远了。

而且我也大概是第一次排队排了那么久，

排了45分钟才进到店里。

整整的45分钟啊~~~

平时的我是不可能会这样排队吃东西的。

可是既然都来到了，

所以唯有硬着头皮的等啦。

平时我通常都会make reservations，就是要避免这样等。

当然也有一些地方是没有reservation system的，

通常如果是这样的店我都会早到/有时候经过看到没有人的时候才进去吃/直接选其他的。

没有必要一定要吃到。

如果是一定要吃到的话就会选择当最早到的客人。

这里的食物不算便宜，

和一般cafe的价钱相差不大，

所以对我来说，偶尔吃一吃这些就好了。

上面的macaroon很不错，雪糕也很特别，

尤其是一个不懂什么口味的，

就是那只有一球雪糕的waffle的上面，

很好吃，又不会太甜，吃进口里有微微的香气，

太不错了！

这里是很适合拍照的地方，

我也发掘了我电话的新拍照功能，

大概可能是我太低能忙了吧，

*开玩笑，怎么可能*

所以用了大约一年才发现到自己的手机有这样的功能。。。

淑云也用了她手机的新app来帮我拍照，

这些照片简直就很有feel!!!

所以我也很做作的扮成忧郁样...lol

忽然觉得自己还蛮不错的嘛，

很久没有这么做作的拍照了.

还是宝刀未老。

*忽然觉得自己好老噢*

当然也要谢谢淑云不厌其烦的帮我拍照啦~~~

p/s: 淑云是谁？她是我弟的太太啦！

This is a counting my blessings post.

"Beautiful"/Confusing Quotes

最近看到一些很有意义的quotes,

"Life is not about finding yourself, it's about CREATING yourself."

So, what do I want to become?

I asked myself when I saw the quote.

I am not sure and I don't know.

That's my answer to the question.

After putting some thoughts in it, I realize that since I am creating myself, I can choose whatever I want to do.

Be it escaping from the issues here or trying to live a better live elsewhere,

I should get to choose.

Yes, I choose.

"I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly to anywhere in the world. Then, I asked myself the same question. "

我，

对号入座了。

"Don't count the days, make everyday counts."

This is so hard. 

芭蕾&Orchestra

在没有任何expectation之下我去看了这场表演，

可是他们的第一首歌就已经让我觉得很震撼。

他们开始得很顺，虽然我的音乐造诣不高，

但是我听得出他们的表演很好听。=）

而且还有女高音和芭蕾舞者的表演。

他们的表演都很出色，

况且，这是我第一次看到现场真人的芭蕾舞表演leh...

而且还是专业的表演~~~

这太过令我惊喜了，=）

而且他们表演得很精湛，

女主角的脚应该很痛吧，

她必须用脚尖来平衡自己（踮脚站很久）和转圈，

但是我也见识到了芭蕾舞者的坚持，

他们一定坚持了很久才有今天的舞功吧。。。

而且她未免也太瘦了，

应该和Black Swan里的女主角一样，

为了不发胖而每天只靠一颗苹果来为生的那种diet吧。。。

但是overall，我很满意那天的这样的一个机会，

I guess this might be the something that's beautiful in my everyday life.

*cherish.appreciate.blessings*

“死”

今天和我妈吵了几句，

原因不重要，

重要的是她常常都会说她去死了会更好，

因为没有人会再烦我们了。

对我来说，我没有这样的意思，

我只是告诉她，

“很多时候，她说的话只会令对方和她吵架，

那不如不说更好，因为吵架很烦，很累。”

当她说她要去死的时候，

我想，其实只要我不在就好啦。。。

只不过种种原因让我不得不留在这里，

如果有机会，我早就离开了，

不会留在这个鬼地方的。

可是我并没有告诉她我的想法，

因为这对她来说并不重要。

而且我已经在一步步的朝我要的方向了，

所以，我只需要等到时机成熟就可以。

现在的我只能一直忍，忍，忍好了。

PS:那时候的我好想立刻到飞机场买张机票，立刻飞离这里，而我的目的地是美国纽约，因为我想看一看Statue of Liberty和问一问，我何时才可以得到真正的liberty.

Re-living childhood fairy tales...

I'm sure many of us knew & watched the recent Cinderella movie which smashed the box office. 

Although some of my friends said that they don't understand why the movie was film again despite the cartoon version. After all, the story line will be the SAME...

Well I have to admit that what they said were right and the story line is more or less the same rather than some minor differences... For example, the Father of the prince in the original version of Cinderella was not dead and witnessed their wedding and, the fairy godmother in the cartoon version chanted the spells even better when she was giving Cinderella a new look...

Overall, the story remained the same as the cartoon version. 

After all, if we were told that the prince will not be with Cinderella in the end of the movie, will we still want to watch it?

The answer is a NO for me, personally. 

What I actually want to say is that Disney decided to re-film more fairy tales such as Beauty & the Beast, Mulan, Little Mermaid, & etc...

I'm very excited about it and I can't wait to watch them in the cinema. 

I guess maybe because the recent Cinderella smashed box office which allows them to re-film all the fairy tales. 

Yes, I do aware that I am a grown up now, but nothing can stop me from re-living my childhood fairy tales by watching the new movies~~~    

Dream

Yesterday, I dreamed that I finally confronted my mother after all these years of injustice... 

She was very angry both emotionally and at me for confronting her...

I don't know where did I gather the courage to actually confront her, 

maybe because I was too stressed out recently and I am deadly to know why didn't she support me to study abroad rather than dumping $$$ into renovating the stupid house?

Does gender matters that much?

If the person who wanted to study abroad was my brother, will she change her mind?

What am I supposed to do with it?

Do I not deserve a better future?

Do I not deserve to study abroad?

Am I supposed to accept all these crap and pretends nothing has happened and try to live happily in the future despite all these crap?

Will I be able to accept all these and life with it? 

Do I really want to confront her?

Yes, I do because if I don't, there'll always be something in my heart. 

But if I do, maybe she'll get really angry and things will get really ugly, am I ready to face this?

Do I want to put myself into that situation?