Chinese New Year

As I grow up, I realized that I don't enjoy CNY as much as I did as compared to when I was young....

I think that children were conditioned to enjoy CNY as they get holidays, new stuffs, and ang paoSSS during CNY despite the huge amount of home works...

I have so much to get it done before CNY,

yet I think I won't be able to complete it as I wanted to...

There's so many obstacles in order to get it done,

and so much "disagreements" between my sisters and I....

The family isn't in a "peace" mode now...

Was it because I care too much or was it because of her reluctance??

I'm not trying to be self serving bias here but I think it was her...

Why??

Because she just don't want to deal with it and avoided to talk about it with me...

RELUCTANCE!!!!

I really don't understand why the close relationship that we once had can be worsen up to the extent for today....

To me, I think I've given up...

This is a sad but true fact.....

*I told her about my blog, but she said she was just too busy and had no time to read my blog...

*Also, she said that she's NO FREE to know what I think and what I wrote...

What should I do??

I've tried m very best to communicate with her, yet, I think we're just communicating in at a superficial level each time we talked...

The numbers of time we talked in a week can be counted using fingers right now...

I always thinks that she was being so fake yet my other siblings told me that, that was just her personality...

I don't understand.... I seriously don't!!!!!

Why must I be the one who always being understanding but not her trying to understand me???

Tell me what to do and why???

Why??

WHY???

WHY?????