Happiness

Can we feel happy from the bottom of our hearts without anything happen around/on us especially when we are alone?

Is that possible that we're able to laugh and forgetting all the problems that's harassing us?

How to reach peace in mind when there are so many things waiting for us to solve it?

Since the problem is still there while we're trying to relax and to feel happy for a second, at least.

I really find it very hard for me to feel happy nowadays.
Retail therapy doesn't seem to get its way on me now.
I think I need something else. But I don't know where and how to find it.

No matter how many variety shows that I watched, my mood just dropped to the worst after the shows finished.

and, I have problems to go to sleep and to wake up from my sleep due to the stressors in my life.

I do not know what to do but simply undergoing my daily routine with all these problems in my mind.

I don't feel happy at all for the fact that chinese new year is coming although I know I should at least feel a little bit of happiness since I'll have holidays.

Thank god that one of my source of happiness is coming to me soon. 

Although I know that its not mentally healthy at all to wait for others to make myself happy, but I'm seriously out of ideas nor having interest in making myself to feel happy.

I know my job doesn't suites me, but I have no choice due to family commitment, just like others.

I know I made my own choices in life and I just choose to be here.