手酸比手痛更难受

昨天，做了半天的劳力后，发现，体力真的不如从前了。。。

以前都不大会累，现在，很容易觉得累。。。

体力恢复得也慢。。。

白头发也渐渐的多了，是因为想太多吗？

还是因为用脑过度？

今天，左手酸得不得了，想把它槌向桌子，这样，它就会痛而不是酸。

因为，

我觉得手痛比手酸来的容易忍。。。

Hold It Against Me

Hey Brit, I'm so PROUD of you.

In case you don't know this song,

it was Britney's latest song and it debuted as #ONE in Billboard Top-100 this week!!!

and it hits the top of charts in 20 other countries too!!!

This is her fourth song that hits #1 by debut following , and <3>!!!  

and, this is something new in Billboard's 52 years history!

Hey Brit, I'm so PROUD of you.

http://marquee.blogs.cnn.com/2011/01/21/britneys-hold-it-against-me-debuts-at-the-top/

http://www.theepochtimes.com/n2/content/view/49786/

Happiness

Can we feel happy from the bottom of our hearts without anything happen around/on us especially when we are alone?

Is that possible that we're able to laugh and forgetting all the problems that's harassing us?

How to reach peace in mind when there are so many things waiting for us to solve it?

Since the problem is still there while we're trying to relax and to feel happy for a second, at least.

I really find it very hard for me to feel happy nowadays.
Retail therapy doesn't seem to get its way on me now.
I think I need something else. But I don't know where and how to find it.

No matter how many variety shows that I watched, my mood just dropped to the worst after the shows finished.

and, I have problems to go to sleep and to wake up from my sleep due to the stressors in my life.

I do not know what to do but simply undergoing my daily routine with all these problems in my mind.

I don't feel happy at all for the fact that chinese new year is coming although I know I should at least feel a little bit of happiness since I'll have holidays.

Thank god that one of my source of happiness is coming to me soon. 

Although I know that its not mentally healthy at all to wait for others to make myself happy, but I'm seriously out of ideas nor having interest in making myself to feel happy.

I know my job doesn't suites me, but I have no choice due to family commitment, just like others.

I know I made my own choices in life and I just choose to be here.

Hello 2011

This is my first post of the year 2011 and I thought I should write something good and sweet...

Yet, it isn't so in real life. ;(

I had a nightmare regarding my work and I woke up being shocked! ;(

*yea, this is how stressed I am*

Last but not least, I released my temper after being so stressed out from work to my dad and I feel so bad after doing it.

*sigh*

what a bad daughter I am... =(

Okays, Chinese New Year is coming and I think it would be a great time for me to relax and to manage my emotions and feelings to the normal level.

Happy New Year everyone,

wishing you guys a happy and auspicious year ahead... =)